the hiatus

i'm still not out from my hiatus.

blame my windows live writer.

i cant open it.

with time constraints windows live writer is what i need

not some crappy blogspot drafter.

gahhh!!!!

need to reformat my computer.

sigggggggggggghh

for time will tell

 

all your words are not to say anything

time will tell

i have vowed

to give you people a fight

im not impressed

for

time will tell

=(

 

 

its unfunny i have to go home.

unfunny

lol

 

 

“i would do megan fox

even though if her name was jack damien,

who cares bout names”

mezmerising.

you got my eyes transfixed

nervous

anxious

i got lost in translation

 

help me.

updates for the past last month. =)

 

its been a seriously long time since i blogged

well here are some pics of us waiting for our photography session

 

this is kenneth aka tai kor

big time fella

if u c him ask for his ic

u dont wanna mess with this guy

=D

oh lol. thats me.

 

this is kenndaeson

single and ready to mingle

very passionate bout being a pilot

girls

he’s chindian

and ready to make a million. lol

 

haha

the joker by myside is aisamudin aka joe aisakudin

thats he’s signature smile

u must listen to his philosophy

“blum cuba blum tau”

“if you love her let her go”

lol

 

this fellla freddie d yoga master

nice guy

was my roommate till something happen

sigh

 

the same joker. joe.

 

joshua aka mr hamsap

one word says it all

 

mr clinton jude nambiar

this bloody halfling here is indian eurasian

no point me tellin much

loyal to his gf of 6 years

so nothing much to say

but this bugga i tell u

one philosophy from him

the butterfly effect

“let the butterfly come to u”

lol

seriouusly smooth operator

 

this fella my good buddy

alex aka aussie kulup pretty boi

good day mate?

 

isaac aka lalazhai

lol

d seafood guy

nice fella

infact too nice. =D

mr arnold aka russell arnold

very passionate bout flying too

hey bro shave that moustache la

lol this fella

jian how

loyal to gf also

but he has this smile thats so playerishly sly

lol

 

 

 

mr jiay yuen

bloody smart fella

my ping pong mate

=)

last few days of DCAT phase

scary shitt

stressed out like shit

 

our final in house exam marks

=D

“batch 26 damn good batch”

-capt. rana

lol

 

c u soon capt ajit

we present u batch 26

 

 

me and ma bro ash on 12th of june

 

dayana my cousin

 

mikail

my cousin

=D

dad mom and granny

my uncle

grandpa =)

 

aunty cooked for me this

cant remember wats it called

but it was really good

=)

granny n mom

 

   

group outing with childhood friends

its been a long time

since we really went out

n omg

seriously d group pose was damn funny

d last we did dat was in form 3

lol

 

“we aint nothing but mammals

so lets do it like they do it on

discovery channel”

BAHHHHHHHHH IM BACK

ups downs.

loads of stuff been happening

n i mean

a hell fucking loads of stuff

since my last update

but we’re only

here deep 10 percent of our course

passed first phase

my ppl phase

now finishing dcat exams

some downs some ups.

broke up

blahhh

lol

anyway

another down

my roomate freddy’s

been really sad bout sum stuff…

miss dat bugga

anyway

after weeks of stress and beers and eye candies

stories

love stories

sad stories

here i am.

just posting some new pics which is not really in my hard disk yet.

bahh

but ill jsut post wtv i got. =)

some old n new pics =)

one of our weekends at debbies place

exploring cenang

some time in april

oh we were listening over the transmitter for our friends communication with langkawi tower

 

 

tanjung rhu

some gay moment with hari current and isaac isace

one of the weekend

 

passing time with counter strike with batchmates

parents came to lepak with me

some class moments receiving my manuals for d diamonds

   

our recklessness in class.

i mean my recklessness in classs

kenndaeson candy ass

 

ah tsongggg

isaac my gay friend =)

captain ajit kumar

capt gautam chaturvedi

captain kanak singh

capt matiu

capt thadani

 

this is how my friend haricurrent sleep

 

crabbee time

jacob biscuit, kenneth the birthday man n jian how the psych

arak tidak dijual untu org org islam. LOL

 

bathc outing

isaac, arnold, jiay yuen, joshua, me, zaiem, marcus, clinton

over the other side is jacob , jian how, kenneth and alex

me n kenneh the bday dude with a special concoction form debbies place

and ya very very very sorrrryy  i oweee u a bigggg present. =)

im out ill add more pics.

people i miss

 

n my girlfriend due to some reasons she doesnt let me put her pic

cuz apparently she said she looks to indecent n not good enuf. pfft

but weell i love these people to death n her too

i miss my grampa n gramma too

n aunt jo

unc dan n liz n dkids…. –.-

miss u guys already

pics of my life recently since my first week in langkawi.

my room. =)

at the pier 

rented a car. =)

off we go to the hangar. =)

the diamond 40 single engine

beaut

the diamond 42 twin engine

sigh. this is the motherload.

 

my version of the 4whell drive

the tobago socata tb10

during my extended physical training 10 k run. =)

the path at the pier.

thomas, me, isaac, shisuke, and kenndaeson

the runners =)

the small white building on the right is our building

we jogged all the way here for the view in the middle of the sea

u spot it?

 

 

thsi is wat happens when u after exercising

n u feel good bout ur self.

you camwhore

alex, ex banker, 25yo. looking for a fuck buddy

in  short fubu

hes words are make love not sex.

mr brunei clinton doin his laundry

 

freddie

my roommate

my gym instructor 26 yo

nice guy

jacob

hann the photographer

tax free kfc

jetty point

lookout point

my bro the opera singer

tjg rhu wonderful place.

no time to explain. =)

my roomie sleeping already

till then nyts

you dont know

you don’t know

how much i love you

how much i care for you

how much i want you

how much i long for you

or

how much i want to

to touch you

to caress you

to kiss you

to hug you

to hold your hand

to smell you

to lie with you

 

oh you dont know

 

how much i miss you

 

you will never know

 

as i lay on my bed

thinking of you

the thought of us

apart

is suffering

i love you baby

 

keep me in your heart

hold on to me

 

and

 

i will hold on to you

 

i love you

1st weekend in lagkawi

 

a snapshot on the beach of langkawi

on a weekend

our first weekend in langkawi

 

thats ahem and arnold. =D

 

my batchmates

that lou sai is alex btw

25 years old.

 

 

 

kenndaeson

 

freddie and hann tsong the photographer

 

 

 

our outing that day was beach, dinner, shopping, driving, exploring…

 

from now on till 2 years

i wont be saying much cuz

i dont have the time

but please do keep my blog alive.

 

cuz im busy

 

comment please

 

its on the lower right hand corner

 

comment say something

speak up

last outing with my college mates. =D

 

outing with kar, ash

genise, kimberley, money

yin tong,

 

 

 

horny ash

got a chicks number

 

 

karlisyle, yin tong

kimberley, and money

 

 

brothas from tha hood

 

bluekkk

 

 

 

 

=D

 

 

 

friends forever

=D

take care u guys

sorry no time to say much

have to study now.

 

tomorrow got 7 hours of class again.

pfft.

i love you babe

if you’re reading this. =D

the finale

the saturday

 

as the end approach to began

for a new chapter

a new post

a new story

a new page

 

these were my last moments

 

saturday was dinner with mom’s side

 

 

brendon my cousin and i

 

 

his parents

 

my parents

 

 

my aunt’s family

 

omg

i call him beescoot face

(biscuit)

i mean look at his face

round as a plate

 

 

 

fellowship of the knights at the round table

 

 

my brother loves to take pictures from the ground

 

my family enjoying some good assam fish

 

 

yvonne my cousin and her mom

 

 

some leftovers

 

 

 

ah

beescoot face

 

 

assam fish

was quite good

 

 

 

some chicken

 

girls call me at

kosong satu empat

tekan tekan tak dapat

if you want to get to know him

 

  

he wanted to give the rich man look

 

 

=D

 

i think beescoot face is getting his fair share of attention already

pfft

 

my family

the bottle is my family too

 

 

my bro will forever be called baby

=)

 

 

ok im lazy to write already

these are some pictures of my aunts and uncles.

 

 

 

crazy fans of ben 10

 

 

 

 

suddenly i felt sad.

 

 

The Sunday

 

paid respect to my grandma mom’s side.

although we dont believe in this

thats why i decided to take pictures

 

 

 

 

can you see a silhouette eating josssticks?

 

 

 

  

the pollution on that day was

way way way bad

 

 

 

 

 

 

this is what happens

when theres too much smoke

 

brothers reaction

 

 

my reaction

moms reaction

 

 

 

then it had to rain

pfft

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

decided to be blasphemous

 

 

 

that guy burnt a lamborghini and a mansion

his ancestors must be really happy

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  that night

dinner with my dads side

i teared on a few occasions

i had to rush to the toilet

 

 

 

 

arent my cousins all cutteee

 

 

 

 

 

super model mikail

 

 

my hot mom

 

 

my grandpa gave me advice

while he was on some chivas

 

 

 

that night suddenly i felt sad

cindy my bitch

i love you

will see you

when i get back

 

 

 

the day

 

sad day

also happy day

 

 

 

had some kfc in klia

 

 

its disgusting how fat i look in the uniform

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

my batchmates

batch 26 hma

batch 18 mas

 

 

 

from top left

jacob,arnold,me,freddie

hann,jian,issac,kenneth

 

from bottom left

clinton,hari,kenn,aisa,

joshua,jia,alex,izzat

 

our journey begans

 

 

 

can u see me in that?

 

beautiful scenery

near penang

 

  

 

 

  

 

flaps up!

langkawi touch down

 

 

 

managed to snapped it while taxiing

 

with the b737-400

 

 

too hot had to squint.

 

 

 

 

the realization

 

sometimes we take things for granted

when your loved ones are beside you

the way you speak

your actions

 

but when it dawn upon you that

you’re parting away

you tear

you feel sad

 

you see your loved ones tear

red eyes and stuff

especially at the airport

 

sigh

 

your family

your girlfriend

your friends

 

i love you

all of you

 

you are always in my heart

 

 

ok i gotto go study for tomorrow

navigation and meteorology

 

my days here have beeen hectic

something new

 

a new day

a new life.

i wish you were here.

 

I dig my toes into the sand
The Ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless

 

And in this moment I am happy

 

happy

 

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

 

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I counting UFO
I signal them with my lighter

 

And in this moment I am happy

 

happy

 

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

 

The worlds a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air

 

saying

 

I wish you were here
I wish you were here.
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

 

Wish you were here.

 

 

 

 

 

when a maldivian psychofro speaks, its of satanic sex

Ajfan says (4:27 PM):
ok
i gotta confess
im not satan
yet..
i gotta wait for lucifer to retire..

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:27 PM):
bahh.. shit why u burst my bubbles.

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:28 PM):
-.-

Ajfan says (4:28 PM):
dont worry when lucifer retires im gon take over..

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:28 PM):
if im going to helll i wud wanna b lucifer.

Ajfan says (4:28 PM):
and im gonna change some stuff..
whats with 666 anyways??? its so lame...my new number is 1313

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:28 PM):
lol.....

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:29 PM):
1313 is lame bro... how bout 4613.. wats with repetitions man
-.-
4 is bad for chinese
6 for the chrsitians

Ajfan says (4:29 PM):
hahahaha
hahahha

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:29 PM):
13 for chinese also
lol

Ajfan says (4:29 PM):
lol
do u believe that stuff though?

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:29 PM):
chinese the whole god damn world is bad for dem
-.-
no
not aa single bit
imma

Ajfan says (4:29 PM):
riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:30 PM):
imma have my supras number plate to 4444

Ajfan says (4:30 PM):
hahahaha

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:30 PM):
fce 4444
fuck chinese eternally
4444
!!!!!

Ajfan says (4:30 PM):
a chinese person wont even come near ur car...

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:30 PM):
YA I KNOWWW
totally fuckin cool..

Ajfan says (4:31 PM):
so u packed?
are u taking ur dog?

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:31 PM):
fuckinridiculous i tell u wen i enter those chinese developed condos.. n u c 3, 3a, then 13, 13a
wat de fuck.
yup i am..   cuz i dont wan som emaldivian psychofro to kidnap her

Ajfan says (4:32 PM):
dammit...
oh u think going to langkawi will stop me..

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:32 PM):
if im not brinign her along i wud tell my parents.. if u c anyone who looks like lucifer hiding its horns in a fro dont let him in
call d cops

Ajfan says (4:32 PM):
hahaha
the cops
what a joke..

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:32 PM):
HAHHAA

Ajfan says (4:32 PM):
i'll just call my little bunny minions

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:32 PM):
sry ill caalll zeus
lol

Ajfan says (4:33 PM):
zeus can suck my left horn...

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:33 PM):
HAHAH

Ajfan says (4:34 PM):
so dude

Ajfan says (4:35 PM):
where are u gonna stay in langkawi?
hostel?

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:35 PM):
hostel.. yup..
sharing with a roommate fuck...cant blast bring me the horizon n stuff like dat.
-.-

Ajfan says (4:36 PM):
hahaha
lol
man what if hes a rapist..

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:36 PM):
dood if anyone wud be a rapist it wud be me.

Ajfan says (4:36 PM):
ooook

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r  says wake up by arcade fire is like sex on ice and everything nice. says (4:37 PM):
cuz my mom dat day read my blog .. shes like why does everythign have to do with sex.
lol
-.-

Ajfan says (4:37 PM):
hahahaha
hahahahah
lol

why so kanina wan??

 

 

 

the bloody stupid tailor

got me bloody agitated today

 

ive been waiting for it for years

 

kanina

 

 

todays mondi thursday so im not going to use the word F to the U C K.

 

stoopid foool

 

6789998212

 

really now?

 

viagra supplier?

 

today is the day i just found out its from a lyric.

 

soulja boy

678triple98212

 

-.-

 

pfffffffft

pssssssh

uffffffff

 

F to the U C K you ash

i will hold your hand

i will hold your hand

thru this passage

and

you will hold my hand

 

the words i utter

i mean it

 

we’ll make it work

 

thru the ice age

thru the wild fire

 

even if feelings

of boredom

and

pleasure wears off

 

i’m no shallow boy

thats

the way i are

 

despite the millions out there

who are like that

 

i love you

bak pepatah inggeris daripada seorang gadis melayu

 

 

 

 

“life is like a black’s man left nut,

it’s not fair neither it’s right”

-my random gadis melayu friend

 

 

 

tribute to the maldivian psychofro.

 

 

 

 

“i’m not satanic,

i’m satan himself”

-the maldivian psychofro

 

 

 

 

this is capt. terence spencer speakin. ahem.. LOL.

 

the pre-sent off syndrome

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

che.

i forgot my watch.

 

 

 

this is what i promise my self

 

after completion of my course

 

 

-grab one of the award

top gun

top academician

top cadet pilot

 

-tone my body

 

-study real hard

 

 

 

okay now im fucked

 

 

 

 

im definitely fucked this time

 

definitely.

 

goodbye people

 

goodbye world

 

 

 

 

we’ll never come to an end

 

 

 

her: im curled up in bed thinkin of you =)

him: don’t worry wednesday is just around the corner.
but somehow the day will end.
everythign good always comes to an end.
sigh.
i love you.
i dont wanna go just yet.

her: we’ll never come to an end =)

 

 

 

 

 

she doesnt say much

but

she completes me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

ENTER THE SHADE WAR

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

VS

 

 

 

GUYS AND GIRLS

 

vote for your

fav pose

fav shade

 

officially ash and i

are

entering

the SHADE WAR

 

HUAHUAHUAHUA

 

ps. leave comments in the chat box or comment it.  =)

its not that i have to 1 up you but im just made to be cooler than you. =)

 

 

 

dood you know i love you

 

thank you

 

amidst the rubble

and

concrete

are people you want to

thank

 

to

 

my mom

who ‘wanted’ to meet my baby and cook for her

my ah b

who brought everyone and organized the party

my grandma

who cooked and cracked jokes

 

to

 

my darling

who stressed out for him and ‘cooly’ organized it

while i was at her side

my homie ashy bashy

for faking he’s im-not-gonna-come-with-you-guys bullshit

 

my homegirl mala sukumar

banana bokana manggama

my hombre lucy

my peeps julian

my peeps ivan and cherrie poppin

my peeps jabez

 

thank you so much

for making it happen

=)

 

cheers

 

 

the sunrise

 

 

let

the incandescent bluish glow

subside

 

the glow of the sunrise

radiate

 

 

so ever brightly

 

 

a new day

 

 

let bygones be bygones

and

jackasses be jackasses

 

let no souls cross paths

for i will not bow down

to

anyone

 

its

ME

and

YOU

 

a new day

a new life

a new hope

 

lets revel of the things unsaid

 

because its

 

only

 

only

 

ME

and

YOU

 

lets enter the sunrise

 

 

 

 

outing with karlisyle. i’m gonna miss you.

 

 

shaolin kung fu in action.

 

 

karlisyle trying snapping a pic while i try out a shirt in zero hour =)

 

alfredo!

 

 

thanks so  much karlisyle..it was really expensive you know..

we will meet in the near future

call me if you need anything

=)

 

you need someone to zap you back to reality

hey buddy look closer

 

 

 

 

seriously

i dont understand

why you doing this.

 

 

 

 

 

laugh

fuckface you need to laugh

okay

 

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

 

i need be rocking the world

 

someone made my day

 

laugh

 

oh come on

 

you are not looking at the right angle

 

its 35 degrees

 

ah

 

yes

 

now look

 

you see it

don’t you

 

i see it

 

do you?

 

hahahahhahahahhahahhahahhahahahhahahhahahahahhahahah

 

i think my soul searching for today ends

 

thank you iman

 

although you may never know what you have done

 

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

 

soulsearching

where art thou?

 

i look in despair

for you

 

every corner

 

every alley

 

but i don’t see you

 

where art thou?

retreat

retreat

 

let go

 

release

 

dig out the eye

feed it to the hungry

tear it open

and

retreat

 

retreat

 

because it hurts

 

tell me it hurts no more

 

oh tell me

 

you know there’s a time when you reminisce and say that dad and mom was right.

look

closely

 

what do you see?

 

listen

closely

 

what do you hear?

 

now you know

 

who are you to kid?

 

him? her?

 

no

 

i kid myself

 

whitened your knuckles

around the flick knife

 

hey

you know probably

 

you are right

 

painless

meandering river

meandering tears

crimson red

 

slash

slice

stab

 

slit

 

what do you feel?

 

ah.

 

out of the world.

 

swirling

gyrating

 

in the endless pitch black vortex

 

to the other side

probably that is where you need be

 

listen

do you hear yourself?

 

do you?

 

closer

 

move closer

your ears on its chest

 

confused

 

oh shut up

i do know now

 

but who do i kid

 

him? her?

 

oh i know

i kid myself

you retard

 

 

 

 

yes its you ash my retarding douchebag

 

 

yes you.

 

 

 

you know who you are

 

 

 

a tribute to the ones who filled the gap between my fingers

 

to those who made me day

 

to those who gave me strength

 

to those who lift me up when im down

 

to those who were with me thick and thin

 

to those who told me to relax and relax

 

to those who did soulsearching for me

 

to those who loved me back in return

 

 

i love you people

so much

 

it dawned upon me

 

suddenly

it dawned upon me

its me

its me

its me

 

why don’t i see it

 

time

 

my teacher

 

oh slide with the wind

 

and gently touch

and caress my cheek

tell me oh wise one

tell me

 

is it me?

 

suddenly

it dawned upon me

 

its me.

 

dear you.

 

“darling i hope you do know that i will go to not only great lengths but to immeasurable lengths for you ,

i also do hope you do know that to this point of our relationship however short that is ,

i’ve accepted you and the package you come with,

your problems, your culture, your people, your perspective, your mindset,

your life,

i hope you do realize that i have taken in a lot like a sponge ,

adjusting, adapting, accepting,

with all this sacrifices,

there’s so much more space left……

i will hold your hand till the end of times,

to the end of the horizons

to the end of life itself

even though i may never be parallel to your conventionalities

or may never be in the ivy league

what does matter is that i love you unconditionally in case you think i don’t

only time will tell

lets keep all the unsaid for time to unveil……..”

 

ps: i hope you understand…

 

fuck you slapstick violence lover

 

left one out.

 

lol

we made slut the cam?

outing with my love and my homie

 

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“these to my

 grave”

 

 

 

sometimes

 

sometimes

you will never know

of the silhouette that quietly

picks up the kitchen knife

 

sometimes

you will never know of

the unexpected left hand

that disappears from

our stereoscopic view

 

sometimes

you will never know of

the rubber gloves

and the rambo dagger

nor the chlorofoamed hankerchief

 

sometimes

you will never know of

the secret affairs

of your heart

your liver

and your mind

 

sometimes

you will never know of

the black cat

that stalks you

and moves with poise

confidence

confiding from the silhouettes of

the dark city

 

sometimes

you will never know of

him or her

or life

or life’s doings

 

sometimes

you will never know

till

the kitchen knife pierces

even sometimes

the kitchen knife pierces a million times

you will never know

 

sometimes

you will never know

till

the left hand appears

but only with something in its grasp

and

you

gasping for air

clawing the dark blue abyss of murky water

your eyes staring glaring at the tiny white light

right at the top of the surface

but

…………..

 

sometimes

you will never know

till

the strand of hair is identified

or the bloodstain that takes refuge

from the cold steel of the jagged dagger

actually belongs to a name

 

sometimes

you will never know

till

poise and confidence wears off

and the metal garbage can

topples

and you turn your head

you see its rigid furry black tail

 

sometimes

you will never know

till it knocks at your door

and you open

 

 

“Hello Terence,

its me,

tried calling you,

but you didnt pick up,

so i had to drop by,

its me,

 

LIFE”

 

 

 

 

 

reaction to the pictures below from her. =)

 

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:27 PM):
-.-
took YOU forever..
lol
llollll
anyway babe
enter my blog at ur own risk
no no no
i dont think i wan u to enter

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:28 PM):
i wanna c ur original reaction tomorrow
babbeeeeeeeee
apa lu buattt

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:29 PM):
(shock)  x 10000000000

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:29 PM):
wat?
wat>??
wat??
wat??
u saw already???????????
aiyaaaa

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:29 PM):
YOUR HAIRRRRRRRRRR
OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:29 PM):
tomorrow only c only shock la..
so tell me disgusting?

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:30 PM):
OMFGGGGGGG

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:30 PM):
lollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:30 PM):
your offline btw

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:30 PM):
huh?

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:30 PM):
but OMFGGGGGGGGG

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:30 PM):
ohh
lol

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:30 PM):
ZOMFG
OH MY MOTHERING DAY
SHOOT ME

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- said (10:31 PM):
darling ....

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:31 PM):
dont laaaaa.im sad already........
-.-
lol
babeeeeeeeeeeeee

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:32 PM):
yes

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:32 PM):
wat dya think?

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:33 PM):
its okay =(

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:34 PM):
-.-
okaaayayyyyyyyyy
sighh
(heaves loudy)

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:34 PM):
i still love you a 110% percent
and with your buff body i honestly think you do look sexy

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:34 PM):
eeee 
lol...
lolll

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:35 PM):
LLLLLLoooooLLOOooooOooLLLLL
YEAHHH!!!!!!
ok at least that was d best comment eva after my haircut

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:36 PM):
so did u criticise or comment on my blog.. 
loll

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:36 PM):
no baby
but i love it
eventho i loved your old hair. i love this one better
your my first mafia looking boyf

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:36 PM):
LOLLLL

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:37 PM):
wait u just said its ok.. LOL..   i love U!
mafia looking boyfriend
LOLLL

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:37 PM):
no
i said I LOVE IT

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:37 PM):
tha is blogworthy
!
mwaaaa!!!!!!!!

[-PhiL-] You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says (10:38 PM):
yes yes. tell the whole world
your gf is not some atas bitch eventho she's an atas chic

T e r e n c e  S p e n c e r ' s eyebrow hair is longer than his hair   -.-   -.- says (10:38 PM):
lolll... nah its ok...   cuz i know lol ppl will laugh at me.. lol...
shes the best atas girl eveer ALIVE  =)

 

_______________________________________________________________________________________

 

 

well,

i just told the whole world

=)

 

before and after

 

 

my beloved hair before

 

blade 3

 

 

blade 2

 

someone please tell me

i still look sexy

lol

confessions of the heavy hearted

don’t read

for then you may think i don’t love you as much as you do.

i say so is because you write literature

i write ulutard english

lol

 

 

i will tell you my secrets

the ones recessing at the back of my head

the ones lingering around the atriums

for i want you to keep telling yours

your deepest secret

your darkest secret

 

why?

 

for this stable port we walk

where no one is watching

it does not matter at all

for they are immaterial to me

for who you were

or

you what you did

or the life you led

 

i don’t care

like you said

lets turn a new chapter

lets crush the creased ones

and start over on the uncreased ones

 

for i love you for who you are

therefore i love the

problems that fill the gap between your fingers

i will remove them and fill the gap with my fingers

 

together

hand in hand

thick and thin

tempestuous and calm

nevertheless

nonetheless

hand in hand

still…

 

i have kuci instead of gucci

channel instead of chanel

le foa instead of le feit

i can’t afford to buy you houses for a dare

nor

afford islands for you to hoolala around

i have nothing shiny and glorifying

 

but what i do have

is my heart

my sincere heart

my love

my sincere love

its like i’ve fallen in love again

 

this one is different

and we can go through firsts

together again

 

but when i leave

i’m going to ask you to hold on

hold on to what you think is worth it

for i will hold on

for i will hold tightly

like a precious gem of priceless uniquity

 

i can’t say enough

but only say

i will always be your venting machine

of love, patience,hope, trust

and faith

but i will be different than the rest

you don’t need to feed me coins

all you have to do is

be there.

 

i am everywhere

the truth is i have never left

look closely

i am there

feel your heartbeat

you’ll feel me

listen closely

its me.

 

this love will pull us thru baby

 

“i wouldn’t trade you for the world i swear,
and you can count on that.
i may never show up randomly at your doorstep with the words of an angel,
but i’ll always be there.”

 

i wouldn’t trade you for the world i promise

cross my heart

never.

i promise.

i swear

 

i’ll wait for you ,

we’ll spend quiet time to make up for

the future 2 years that ill be away.

i love u n i will always do.

 

baby, with all things said & done. departing from you would be the hardest thing.

baby,ive never depart or i never will

so

listen

feel

look

closely

 

there you are

here i am

lets get lost in translation….

 

 

 

 

i love you.

 

 

dont’t be pissed at me.. i’m just sad.

 

 

All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome

I could die……

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go…

cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again

Oh babe,

I hate to go

Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing

Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you

When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go…

cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again

Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you..

One more time
Let me kiss you

Then close your eyes
Ill be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, I wont have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go

cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again

Oh babe, I hate to go

But, Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again

Oh babe,

I hate to go..

 

 

 

 

PS. i’m really sad..

im gonna miss u

 

 

but i’ll be back =)

 

of paper hearts and the real ones.

 

 

i wish i am there to calm you

to hug you

to hold you close

and take all your worries away

 

i wish i am there

so that i can be your venting machine

 

“the only two things i want to do now

would be to hug you and feel the warmth of your body against mine

and know that everything's okay just being in your arms

and kissing you.”

 

oh wait.

i am there to hug you

to hold you close

to take your worries away

i am there to be your only one venting machine

your go to guy

look closely

you’ll see me

 

 

 

and yes i see you.

 

 

 

i love you.

 

 

 

when you think you get your life all figured out. and ya some grouses.

 

 

 

when you think you have it all figured out

 

what more can someone ask for

for someone my age

really

what more

i think i have it figured it out

but seriously why do i have aching questions still

disturbing thoughts still

 

okay

let me lay out my life

for you and my plan in life in

a very very detailed and superficial level

but trust i have it figured out or i think i have

like in a massive deep level

 

someone told me

that sometimes you have to live your life

like a dog

live from day to day

don’t think so much

i have a brain that thinks too much

 

i think most bout

 

my business

my responsibilities

as a son

as a boyfriend.. lol..

just kidding.. im naturally good at it. =)

basically i think ALOT.

 

someone please tell me my life would be all sorted out

 

MY MAPPED OUT LIFE

 

okay 19 years old.

here i am waiting to be in pilot school

sponsored by mas

2 years into course and i would be out of it

and start flying by the age of 21or 22

i want to settle by the age of 25

cuz i dont want me(soon to be dad)to be too old

to bond with my teenage sons.. lol

and be a pilot till i retire

50’s prob 60 ‘s prob?

then live on my epf money then die happily ever after. =)

 

here’s some of my dreams

 

i want to be a really good father

2nd i really want to be a good husband

3rd i really want to have a real rockin family

4th i want health and wealth to come along

5th i want to be different.

you’ll never understand the term i speak off till you know me real well

 

WELLL SADLY I HAVE MY OWN GROUSES

 

the 40 year plan

 

i want to escape from the financial shackles of reality

that people are facing

why do people subscribe to the 40 year old plan??

the plan that your dad told you or your teacher told you

 

ah this one is famous.

“study hard, get good grades, get a double degree, get a masters or wtv, get a good job
and you are set for LIFE”
-dads, moms, teachers, everyone..

really now??

 

when you were in school

why did no one tell you that being an engineer,doctor, or wtv means

going to work from 9 to 6 the least

and your salary sucks donkeys balls

to start with

and you answer your boss

“how far?”

when your boss asks you to jump

and you work for the least of 40 years.

for christ’s sake.

theres more to LIFE.

 

okaaay

lets say you are all ambitious bout climbing up the corporate ladder

look at your boss

if you get REAL goood at your job.

you’ll end up like your boss

do you reallly want to be like your boss?

spending more time at work

puttin more hours in

spending time out of work thinkin bout work

and he watches his children grow horizontally

cuz he leaves the house when its dark and the children are asleep

and gets back when its dark when the children are asleep

rather the maid is watchin them grow vertically.

do you really want to spend more time with their bosses than with their family?

 

people should be busy to stop being busy

but people are busy keeping busy

these are the people i see everyday in train stations like mechanical zombies

going to work

and they actually wake up after the caffeine touches their lips

in the office

 

the attack of the alarm

the best time to sleep is from 6am to 9 am.

because that is when your bloody alarm

have to ring

and trust me if you do this often enough like years already like

my mom

she wakes the alarm up rather than the alarm wakes her

another dream is to banish all alarm clocks when i can do so in the future

 

the door to door people

oh  you people hate the mlm door to door people

or the salesman who’s trying to earn an honest living

at least they are straight up that they are selling products

 

what bout you people

you people sell too

you sell your souls to your bosses

you sell your values

you sell on you dreams

you sell LIFE

to your boss

so that your boss can live the LIFE

 

at least the door to door salesman is selling upfront

for his freedom

not some boss

 

talkin bout door to door

you go dood to door

from your bedroom door to the bathroom door to the bedroom door to the house door

to the car door to the office door

back to car door , house door, bathroom door , bedroom door

and you do this door to door bullshit for 40 years and you hate door to door salesman? seriously??

like a car viper.

really now??

think bout it.

 

 

i want to be different

 

i dont want to be like anyone of you out there

majority of you

i want to be different

you see my worries here?

you see my grouses?

 

on this part im not going to say much.

 

no words can describe what im doin different

that will cme sensible to any of you

i make a promise to myself.

in 10 years or so.

i will be significantly making a change.

i crap not.

i rant not.

 

 

“what you believe does not matter at all,

but the fruits of your belief are the ones that matters”

-Terence Spencer Tan

 

writers block

 

Oh please don’t give up on my blog

 

i’m going thru a phase called

 

A WRITER’S BLOCK

 

 

 

 

 

of chanel, mary jane , deaths and ODs.

 

 

 

 

 

 

you leap beyond the pages of my fantasy,

 

beyond the fragments of my imagination,

 

only god knows how he sorted out our chemistry,

 

is she real?

 

or just a

flickering shadow in the dark recess of my hallucinations….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

if i were gay i would do you… in the a hole.

if i were gay i would so do you

in the a hole

and get you moan of your depressions

and get you to be the same ol’ dude again

i know you’ll be

 

in a matter of time and space continuum

 

waiting for you to come home

douchebagged slapstick. =)

 

 

 

i see the rainbow.. but colors where art thou?

amidst the superficial beauty we lie in

there’s always the dark side

a silver lining of hopeless hope

a black rose of despair

 

amidst the cherubic face of happiness

there paint a picture of doom and gloom

of sad depressed broken soul

like plethora of cars

with no one in it

 

like our body of emptiness

where art thou?

thy joyful soul…

 

amidst all these imperfections

lie the wholesome perfection

something called life

 

and this is my life.

 

if we think we all lead different lives

if we think we all are different

if we think that we are the only ones dysfunctioning

to this dysfunctionality

if we think we know ourselves

 

we really need to remind ourselves

by crashing

crashing into other peoples lives

 

crash

crash

crash

 

there we go

we are not different than any other

we are the same

amidst the cheerful glee we fake

amidst the perfections we subscribe to

we are dysfunctional after all

we all shed tears of despair

tears of sorrow

we all crash and find out

that

we are the same beings that

go thru the same thing

called life

 

moving at the speed of life

we are bound to collide with each other

my life your life our lives

 

i see the rainbow

but

where art thou colors?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

him to her…

“and i’ll be your go-to-guy

we’ll go thru

the wonderful

the ugly

and everything nice

even sex on ice =)

lol

and yes i’ll be your

all in one machine too =)”

 

-Him

 

 

she’s my catharsis

 

 

“i love you sayang.

and ill go through this with you. =)

i can be your

venting machine,

anger machine,

emotional machine

&

fun machine

&

sarcastic

&

blunt machine

 

 

i can be your go-to-girl”

 

-Her…

 

 

 

the scores 4-4

who tha man?

I’m THE MAN

what’s the score?

4-4

from like 3-1?

dude

try talking trash with me in pool

i’ll say

 

 

“bring your balls in case

you cant hit those on the table”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i apologise profusely your highness. =P

the scene

 

manjula

my long lost friend came up to me

while i was playin pool

in brewball

during lunch break.

and

my darling was there

and

ashy bashy cashy dashy

 

then manjula walks up to me

i was eternally

traumatised

lost for words

seizures in my brain

as described by phil’s friend

i said

 

“ hey manjula!!!! meet my girlfriend

what’s her name aa?”

 

SERIOUSLY

i should be shot in the eye

who says that??

my defence is that i was brain dead a moment

when someone you thought died

appeared to you in a flash

but according

to darling

she said

no defence for that

so she wants an apology

but she’s really nice and said

 

“it’s ok nvm save you the embarrassment

and

i still sayang you =)”

 

 

but really that was

way beyond dumb =D

 

 

 

i’m so so

 

SORRY dear

 

but you know

 

i cayunk you

 

right =P

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

MWAA

SORRY =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

‘mamat’ and minah. lol

 

 

 

 

 

 

“If you think

 

missing me is

 

hard,

 

you should try

 

missing you.”

-Terence Spencer Tan Cheng Aun

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SEX is salty salty. =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sex is interesting, but it's not totally important. I mean it's not even as important (physically) as excretion. A man can go seventy years without a piece of ass, but he can die in a week without a bowel movement.
-Charles Bukowski

 

It is not sex that gives the pleasure, but the lover.
-Marge Piercy

 

Sexual love is the most stupendous fact of the universe, and the most magical mystery our poor blind senses know.
-Amy Lowell

 

Sex and beauty are inseparable, like life and consciousness. And the intelligence which goes with sex and beauty, and arises out of sex and beauty, is intuition.
-David Herbert Lawrence

 

Sex is a momentary itch, love never lets you go.
-Kingsley Amis

 

Sex without love is a meaningless experience, but as far as meaningless experiences go its pretty damn good.
-Woody Allen

 

Sex is a momentary itch, love never lets you go.
-Kingsley Amis

 

Remember, sex is like a Chinese dinner. It ain't over 'til you both get your cookie.
-Alec Baldwin

 

Sex pleasure in woman is a kind of magic spell; it demands complete abandon; if words or movements oppose the magic of caresses, the spell is broken.
-Simone de Beauvoir

 

Sex is the last refuge of the miserable.
-Quentin Crisp

 

Sex is God's joke on human beings.
-Bette Davis

 

Sex can still be great, even without an orgasm.
-Kristin Davis

 

Sex is a big question mark. It is something people will talk about forever.
-Catherine Deneuve

 

Sex lies at the root of life, and we can never learn to reverence life until we know how to understand sex.
-Henry Ellis

 

Fast sex, like fast food, is cheap, but it doesn't nourish the body - or the soul.
-Suzanne Fields

 

Sex is on the minds of most people, especially those who shouldn't be having it.
-William Glasser

 

Sex in a woman's world has the same currency a penny has in a man's. Every penny saved is a penny earned in one world and in the next every sexual adventure is a literary experience.
-Harry Golden

 

Sex is the gateway to life.
-Frank Harris

 

Sex without love is merely healthy exercise.
-Robert A. Heinlein

 

Sex is a discovery.
-Fannie Hurst

 

Sex is funny and love is serious.
-Stephan Jenkins

 

Sex is a two-way treat.
-Franklin P. Jones

 

Sex, a great and mysterious motive force in human life, has indisputably been a subject of absorbing interest to mankind through the ages.
-William J. Brennan, Jr.

 

 

 

Sex is awesome. Really.
-Terence Spencer Tan Cheng Aun

 

But awesomeness is immaterial without love.
Really too.
-Terence Spencer Tan Cheng Aun

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

not another one.

uhh.

some tag shit again

 

 

The rules are simple..
- do not copy the answers
- the tag questions must be 100% same
- tag ppl after doing the tag
- no tagging the same ppl back

 

People I tag:

1. Philippa

2. Ashley

3. Sugen

4. Thashitaran

5. Victor

6. Karlisyle

7. Sally

8. Nagisa

9. Wei jan

10. Genise

 

 

now the questions are:

how do u noe number 1?
met her thru number 2 at an outing.

what'll u do if u never met number 2?
UHH. NO WAY. IT IS FATED I KNOW NUMBER 2. SO THAT I CAN KNOW NUMBER 1.LOL
BUT ANYWAY NUMBER 2 IS AN EXTREMELY GOOD FRIEND.
WILL TAKE A BULLET FOR HIM! LIKE LOL. in your ddreams =P

what would u do if 3 & 4 dated u?
ewww. i dont do guys.

would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
no. totally not. both of em from different worlds. =D

do u think number 10 is attractive?
if i said yes her head will burst. if i said no she’ll kill me.
so ill say yes no. =D

do you noe anything bout number 8 family?
close to sayin no. maybe a tinge. lol.

tell me something about number 9?
she’s a very nice friendly girl.
open and a good chat mate. =)

what language does number 2 speaks?
he speaks the gutter language. english.
he can hardly babble malay out.

who is number 3 going out with?
going out with many girls. LOL. oh but he has one gf.
oh maybe he has another i dont know.
nah but he’ll tell me he’s one of my best friend.

how old is number 4?
19 yrs old.

 

when was the last time u talked to number 5?
few days back. cant remember.

who is number 6 favourite singer?
err. one of em is paramore. =)

would u date number 7?
err. define date. =)(sally’s technique of escaping)

is number 8 single?
i … think….. she’s single.

what do u think about number 3?
he’s a soon to be pilot whos a drunkard now
who appears to b my best friend and hes enjoyin he’s life now.

hihi =)

 

 

 

 

 

i mishh you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

some of the worthwhile movies. so far.

 

 

“you’re practically blowing him with your eyes”

caroline

 

 

“would you be my boyfriend for 5 minutes”

norah

 

 

“its not a cab my friend i promise u”

nick

 

 

“eyes, up here”

norah

 

 

“if you dont have a drummer than why you do you have drums, you fistfull of assholes”

norah

 

 

“no stopping, no stopping for anything,i dont care if brad pitt is selling fruit in a thong on the g.w, u cannot stop”

norah

 

 

”goodnight my hetero-heroine”

dev

 

 

“when u feel ignored long enough, it just nice to feel special sometimes”

norah

 

 

“the world is broken into pieces, and its everybodies job to find em and put em back together again”

norah

 

 

“maybe we are the pieces”

nick

 

 

 

feel like penning down some good mellow numbers.. (phil told me to)

 

lately have been mellowing down

 

when i was a lil kid.

gay rap as fondly put by my friend

or

Retards Accepting Poetry

 

 

was my genre

then as i got older during d 90’s

numbers like

nirvana’s smells like teen spirit

blur’s song 2

 

 

john’s mistress’ numb

 

 

became some of my favourite

then came ROCK

from plain ol rock pop

i moveed into something called hardcore

i remember dissing some shit played in a bus

it turned out to be the classic

System Of A Down’s Toxicity

 

and when i think bout it

im like

omg how could you diss the LEGENDS.

but anyway i moved to emo

pure emo

no growling.

now

its like

stabbing your ear with a pen

then now SCREAMO.

some of d kick ass bands.

a skylit drive.

 

finch.

 

greeley estates

 

matchbook romance

 

 

to name a few…. =D

whoa and of course how could i not mention

BRING ME THE HORIZON

 

altho they have a hint of hardcore metal in there .

goodstuff.

 

but lately i realized im beginning to mellow down

indie emo mellow stuff…

lol

to name a few.

 

vampire weekend

 

takka takka

 

the real tuesday weld

 

the submarines

 

 

cool stuff….

 

ah ah BTW

im into instrumental rock now.

like

EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY

 

local band DEEPSET

 

MOGWAI

 

 

 

to name a few..