you know there’s a time when you reminisce and say that dad and mom was right.

look

closely

 

what do you see?

 

listen

closely

 

what do you hear?

 

now you know

 

who are you to kid?

 

him? her?

 

no

 

i kid myself

 

whitened your knuckles

around the flick knife

 

hey

you know probably

 

you are right

 

painless

meandering river

meandering tears

crimson red

 

slash

slice

stab

 

slit

 

what do you feel?

 

ah.

 

out of the world.

 

swirling

gyrating

 

in the endless pitch black vortex

 

to the other side

probably that is where you need be

 

listen

do you hear yourself?

 

do you?

 

closer

 

move closer

your ears on its chest

 

confused

 

oh shut up

i do know now

 

but who do i kid

 

him? her?

 

oh i know

i kid myself